he needs a footspa. i'm looking at his exposed feet right now as he sleeps beside me.
sorry. haha.
ever since i got home, it somehow got automatic: we're gonna sleep in the same room: the masterbedroom. though my room is already livable since i've done the cleaning myself, i still don't feel the need to sleep underneath the glow in the dark stars.

maybe because i'm just lazy. or just waiting for nothing. or for mom to come home from dubai next week.
tentative.

anyway, i took a detour from work. on impulse i went to denise's house and spent the rest of the night talking with her sister's friends about kikiks and mumu's... the reason i came home extra late am afraid i'll hear some lashing from herwin's mouth on the morrow. haha.

nah. he won't. he loves me too much to stay mad.
i had a very good reason though, i got scared.
haha.

it's weird. it's just this week that the feeling of being engaged sunk in.
now that herwin's gradually discussing about the date decision thingy.

shucks. i'm screwed. and clueless. and unready. haha.
i'm secretly waiting for the things to come naturally...
but i guess it's not happening.
so i'm gonna need help in everything.

someday.
i'm still delaying though! haha. i do have a few things that i want to do..
like learning how to sew dresses (ofcourse using a sewing machine...) ahahaha..
i have a lot of designs in mind.

i also want to continue my masters again.
get into photography classes..
baking (which is far from happening)
swimming (this one i like sooner)

ayayayayyyyyyyy so many things.. so little time.

in the end, i won't do even a single thing i've mentioned above.
but i'm hoping against hope that i would.

there's only one thing i keep worrying myself about:

who's going to be the photographer on my own big day?

that's about it.

hahahaha.
i have a lot of people in mind.. i think i'm going to offer them a free pictorial. invite them over. blah.
hay.

not yet thinking about gowns, about invitations..

the crazy crazy line up of entourage.. -- this is the hardest part!!!!

I THINK (NO, I'M SURE!) I'LL HAVE AT LEAST 2 MATRON, 3 MAID OF HONOR AND 7 BRIDESMAIDS.
HOW BOUT THAT. HAHAHAHA

motiff.

venue.

and whatever else is essential (because i really am not a certified bridezilla)

yes, i am ecstatic when it comes to weddings, but i can't see myself knowing the particulars that well ever.

i am definitely not a bridal magazine scanner nor a fan of reading such matters.

i'm the first to be engaged in the group.. (except for 2 friends who got married --- tummy-tied)

so i have other interested friends who wants to take care of the business (now that's how i like it!) haha :)

clearly i am the most uninterested party in this event. just because i am an ignorant fiance.
(haha fiance. i thought they were just in the movies.)

anyhoo. i'm very much enjoying my day to day scene here back home, although i miss him more often.
we're like conjoined twins. so hard to separate without feeling lost.

HERE, i can do the things i want! i can go places before i go to work without having trouble with time management.
i can run in circles, do laps in the pool, play with my dogs, take lots of pictures, see various friends, clean the house,
eat out, tumingin sa ulap.. titigan ang buwan... stargazing..... scuba.. skim... BEACH!  overnight.. roadtrips... read!
(infact i'm currently hooked to stephenie meyer series ---- since all my friends are badgering me already.)

much like my INTERESTS in friendster. hahahahahahahah!
i must be radioGAGA :)

SARAAAPPP!!! :)

i need more than 24 hours a day.
to be able to do the things i ain't done yet and that includes cleaning my space!

how i wish we'll only have 6 hours of work a day..
and i do even have lesser than that.
a 5 1/2 hour to be precise,
it's just that the 2 1/2 extra hours are being subdivided into breaks.
so it's still an 8 hour job.
PFFFT..

how i wish there were longer cloudy afternoons..
if you read my mind, i dream of a long 5 o' clock setting.
just enough to cool the senses.

how i wish i could come to work whenever i pleased.
i'd very much give up work for outings,
a beach overnight perhaps.

how i wish i have my own business running about now..
so i won't have to worry about my schedule.

but as sad as it may sound,
i am not meant for those....
not until i move my butt around and get into some action.
and in time i really will..

as of now, i'm currently happy with my situation.
dealer life here in davao is super funnnnn :)
i'd be training for Roulette guys!! :)
wahooooo!
i wasn't able to upgrade back in manila for the reason that
i still lack two games in order to train for it.

but here in davao, they're allowing me. ohyes! :)
challenge here i come.. :)

so for the meantime, i choose to relax and take things slowly..
business will come in the near future.
i truly believe in the saying: "god will provide" hehe :)

the pros and cons of my new habitat ,ergo davao casino filipino... is this:


3 minutes travel time to work!


bwahahahaha! *insert super evil grin*
swear!

jump for joy!
so glad to be back HOME!

i was kinda wondering what life would be like after 2 years. maybe i'll still be working (malamang no..) there. there. there. or maybe i'll get married (shucks. haha) or maybe.. grab my backpack and just leave for nature tripping. magpaka-nomad.

after all the storm, i understood. life's full of problems. hehehe. and as each problem that passes by, another one comes along.. giving you the headache you wished you never had.. (or you wished the person giving them would have. hehehe.)

everyone knows how happy i am to be home. i don't know why i torture myself by staying in hell (you know what hell means, air pollution.. traffic pollution.. price hikes.. expensive taxis.. overcrowded.. and people who doesn't know how to say i'm sorry and excuse me..(well not all of them anyway)..you know.... that place.. hehe) that's how i feel. home's where the heart is. that's just it.

i'm just sad as to why i still feel something's lacking. i'm here but there's something lacking. i'm there in hell and still, something's lacking.
ano be? hehehe.

anyway, think of happy thoughts!
i seem to be forgetting that it's christmas. what i'd receive were crocs and some cute jibbitz! from herwin and the little nano ipodvideo from brian. that was it. haha. the rest were monetary donations (atleast) where's santa? christmas is really different from before. i used to have santa socks and used to open gifts on the eve.

sigh.

what's in is giving yourself a gift. i really just might grab a cannon slr. i'm serious. hehehehe.

i cried the moment the plane touched the ground.


tears of JOY. haha.
coming home has never felt this good..

Have a happy season everyone!

the reason behind the name?
nothing. i ran out of names.
i wanted rocketscientist (but then i ain't one.. and somebody owns it already)
a few were:

thismasquerade
sellingthedrama
poolsofsin
serenade

and blah blah blah.. hehe. all were taken. how bad is that?

back to scratch and loving it.
old friends, new friends..
i'm alive and enjoying every time i get to steal a few moments to type nonsense. hehe